From Korri W., Sumner, Maine
As I sit down to write this essay as to why I find myself drawn to homeopathy and the journey I have taken to get to this point, I realize that I am at the risk of writing a short novel. The path I have taken thus far has been enriching in many ways, but it has certainly not been the most direct route by any means.
Over the years, I have worked in several areas of nursing. From the emergency room, to a crisis intervention unit, to the private homes of others, I have been blessed with an extremely rewarding career. I have had the opportunity to touch the lives of many people, and in turn, they have all touched mine in one way or another.
However, as much as I love the healing aspect of nursing, I have become very dis-heartened with allopathic medicine in general. I feel that more often than not, allopathic medicine is a poor attempt at symptom management, or what I sometimes refer to as “damage control”.
From the first weeks as a nurse, I felt that the profession did not allow enough time for the most valuable thing I had to offer my patients. And that was the ability and willingness to be “present” and listen; to be truly empathetic in that moment without judgement. Hence why time and time again, I make my way back to home care. It is the one setting that I am able to take my time and be completely present, without distraction.
I have spent many years advancing my education from EMT, to LPN, then on to RN. But with each iteration I felt that I was getting further and further away from what my heart told me I was to do. And that was to be a healer. Many patients tell me that they just feel better when I am there and after I leave. And while I don’t doubt that to be true, I believe the reason for that has less to do with my abilities as a nurse and more to do with the willingness to be completely present. This allows people an opportunity to expose themselves to another human being without judgement. One of the best lessons I learned as a psychiatric nurse is that sometimes the best way to make someone feel better is to simply be in their space with them, remain silent and just bear witness to their pain.
I can vividly recall my first personal experience with homeopathy. I was recently divorced, working full time, and pursuing my RN. To say that my life was a bit stressful would be an understatement. I felt restless and anxious and my sleep was suffering because of it. This in turn was effecting my ability to focus which would have been detrimental to my success in school. After seeing the damage caused by traditional medicines, and my lack of confidence in the allopathic system in general, I knew that the last thing I wanted to do was seek assistance from a psychologist or an MD. I was fortunate enough to find a Natropathic physician in my area and she scheduled an appointment with me right away.
My first meeting with her was life changing. All I remember is how she asked question after question, flipping from page to page in a tattered, yet well loved book. As I answered her questions, she allowed me time to give all the information I wanted to share. She never gave an indication that I was wasting her time or that I was getting off track. In fact, it seemed as though she wanted me to get off track and she took everything I said into consideration.
The moment I remember the most, is in the middle of it all, she stopped, looked up at me, wide eyed, and said “You must be thinking that I am some kind of crazy person” to which I replied, “no, I was actually thinking that you are SUCH a TRUE doctor!” Shortly thereafter, she walked to her little cabinet which housed the first “remedy” I was ever given. Upon its administration I cried....and cried.... and did I mention I cried? It was one of the more cathartic moments of my life. I had experienced my first healing. It was amazing.
From that day, I knew that I wanted to pursue homeopathy. However, I also knew that I wanted to pursue it in a way that once my studies were complete, I would not have any loans to pay back. You see, one of the other problems I have is that healthcare and business are married and joined at the hip in allopathic medicine. Don't get me wrong; Florence Nightingale I am not. I know that I will need to support myself and make a living. But I do not want the burden of student loans to drive my practice. It has always been my dream to be able to meet people where they are, not only physically and emotionally, but financially as well. I want to charge patients only a penny more than they can comfortably afford.
What I find most interesting, is that it has taken me this long to find your program. But when I take a step back, I am reminded that everything happens when it is supposed to. I have been blessed with the ability to work hard and am finally in a position where I can not only fund my education, but dedicate myself to the study of the beautiful healing art of homeopathy and focus on being the best practitioner I can be. I am so grateful to be able to integrate all that I have learned thus far and bring it all together as I FINALLY begin to make the shift from nursing to true healing.
I am so grateful for this opportunity! There are times in life when the words “thank you" fall incredibly short, and this is one of those times. But since they are the only words I can find in this moment, it is my hope that you will accept my SINCEREST thank you. I look forward to what I expect will be a life long journey of learning and healing!
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