From Meghan M., Burlington
Change is inevitable. I used to fear change and all of the transitions it brought. I could never really see it for what it truly was and in doing so lived the greater part of my early days wrapped up in a world created by ego. Why the study of homeopathy? What sparks my interest in the field? This are simple questions to answer yet I need to explain how I came to my own realization of true self, otherwise my reasoning to some may not make sense. When did the shift from ego to self-awareness take place? I remember the event like it was yesterday. My father had died during an organ transplantation surgery in 2006 and there were no obvious causes for his death. Three weeks later I left a toxic five year relationship. I felt alone afraid and angry.
During this period of transition I came across the boo The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. I read the book and an inner realization arose. Ego and being are separate. I began to break from my old habits and with time, came to realize that my way of life was a mere illusion. I had graduated from nursing at McMaster University and began what I thought was going to be lifelong career. After the loss of my father I spent the next six years trying to find myself through self-exploration. All of this exploration leads me to this very paper that I am writing.
I have been nursing for four years. I have spent m four years working in cardiac care. The first year and a half was on a ward caring for people with myocardial infractions and arrhythmias. I grew tired of the work and felt the need learn more. I lost the joy that I once had in this environment. I applied and was accepted into CCU, know as the Cardiac Critical Care Unit. I wanted to be there. I thrive in this workplace and learned more than a could have ever imagined. The fast paced environment was my fuel. I started off part time and prayed for a full time position, which is hard to come by. I asked the Universe to give me full time. I put the intention out there with all my heart and sure enough I received what I ask for and was temporarily happy. I thought that moving from part time which can be unsecure in working hours to full time was the answer. No more than six months later did I realize that nursing is not in my card anymore.
Nursing can be a very rewarding job and I no doubt have had many moments where I felt honoured to e caring for the sick. This has never been the issue in nursing. I truly love the art of healing and aiding those in need. What I have come to realize is I do not practice what I preach in other words, I do not believe in the medical model of care. My job is to make the sick health and instead I fill their pill bottles with a wonderful array of colourful medications, pump continuous fluids through their veins and watch as they become the practice bodies for all other invasive interventions. I am disgusted and this is not what I believe in. I do agree that medical interventions is necessary in the most dire circumstances but most of my patients would have never ended up in the hospital bed if they had the awareness that healing comes from within. Healing is beyond the physical but encompasses all realms of being in its most pure state, energy. I have always believed this and have been working with energy for over 4 years now.
Feeling lost in my job I decided to put aside the fear. Fear of money fear of no job fear of instability if I were to leave nursing. I told the Universe that I am done with nursing, my time has passed and it is time for change. Change in a new career, one that I can believe in and stand behind. I researches homeopathy for over 2 months. I read books, articles and started to open up to friends about my interest to see if any had been to a practitioner before. To my surprise I have a few friends who see a homeopath on a consistent basis. I have never been to a homeopath as I have been fortunate enough to be physically healthy and when unbalanced in life emotionally or mentally I have seen my reiki master for energy work.
Confused on where I should be heading with my career I began to meditate. Every day I set aside time to sit in silence and allow myself to open up to whatever signs or messages the Universe may have for me. I spent weeks meditating about the same issue, which career path should I take? I became very specific with my questions to the Universe and truly asked for help with the answer. After one session I got up and on my desk was a bright yellow envelope, which I had set away for with information on homeopathic schools in Toronto. I received this package a few week earlier, briefly reading it and tossed it aside. I picked it up, read through the pamphlets and went back on the internet to look at schools. During my search another window popped up on my screen and led me to the Canadian College of Homeopathic Medicine. After reading the entire website I felt an inner peace, something that was telling me to explore further. Emails and phone calls were made and I decided to begin the certificate course that is offered by CCHM. I sat on a lecture and attended an information session as well.
During study with the first lesson I realized that this was for me. I have no real words to use to describe how I feel about homeopathy. That is a difficult question to ask because I just know it is meant for me to pursue. Simply put, this is it! I enjoy reading all about the history of homeopathy and Hahnemann’s methods it makes perfect sense. I have been practicing energy work for many years and healing through the art of reiki and now I have found homeopathy. Some of the principles of homeopathy are principles that I live by. The energetic force is what give us life, character and emotion. It only makes clear and perfect sense that cures will come when our energy is aligned. The concept of ‘likes cure likes’ is phenomenal. All healing has to take places from within although in society is seen as opposite. Again, this is where my inner conflictions have made me aware that I can no longer go on healing the sick through medical intervention. I have found a profession that excites me and makes me thirst for more knowledge. I can see myself becoming a homeopath and putting all my greatest efforts into the work that I hope to do with the practice.
I am not afraid to take this next step in my life and I am ready from the challenge but also all the successes that I know will come. I know that homeopathy will be an accepted and trusted practice within the medical community in my lifetime. I see through the work that I do every day in the hospital that people are tiring of the old methods and seeking for new opportunities in health. It is time for awakening and I have faith that more and more people will come to realize that it is time for universal change. Society need to turn to more holistic practice for health, homeopathy being on the fore front.
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