"The only way out is in" - Anthony Prem Carlisi: one of my most favourite quotes. These words resonate deeply within me and is a simple description of my journey that led to this very moment. The moment where I decided I was more significant than my fears and larger than life itself. It is my intention to join the Canadian College of Homeopathic Medicine as a diploma student in September 2018. I believe that we all have a purpose in life that we discover through trials and tribulations. My mission is to heal.
On some level, I have always known I was a healer. With my words, my touch, my presence and my passion for knowledge. What I did not comprehend, yet soon discovered, is that healing starts from within. Life has a beautiful way of teaching us, even in the darkest moments, that the light we look for outwards is a reflection of what is inside us all. My story is one of passion, adventure, wanderlust, leadership, intuition, and great determination to lead the life I know I was born to live.
At a very early age, I was taught, through societal values and familial beliefs, that being a healer was synonymous with being a medical doctor. So, wanting to heal the world, I convinced myself to jump headfirst into the path of becoming a doctor. I studied very hard in school, and I made myself believe that the more I focused on school and sacrificed my happiness now, the happier I would be long term. I saw my parents struggle for many years when we first immigrated to Canada in 1998, and I promised them that I would be “successful.” I made it my mission to succeed, and that meant that I could not fail. No matter what.
I put copious amounts of pressure on myself, and I still vividly remember sitting in the library for during my undergraduate degree and staring at a single page for hours, in what felt like a thousand pound textbook. It was as though I could not remember how to read. My heart would start to beat faster; it felt as though it was going to jump out of my chest. My thoughts would race, and I would ultimately, in those moments conclude that I would never succeed. I would judge myself for having fun, and for taking time to be me. I did not know it then, but I later discovered that internal peace promoted the most in-depth learning. I look back now in shock at the stress my spirit went through, and although I suffered then, I am now grateful for those important lessons.
During my time at University, I discovered spirituality, and I also found the power of nutrition. Cooking beautiful meals with lots of colourful vegetables made me happy, and meditating kept my mind calm. I used cooking as a way to create ease, and the kitchen became my playing ground for adventure. I started training my mind and my body, feeding it with good food and positive thoughts. Slowly, I started seeing the beauty of life - the simple things I had missed all along.
I began to understand that education was a part of my life, and was not conclusive of the level of success I could attain. And even more importantly, it was vital for me to measure success by my standards. Slowly but surely, I began to discover aspects of the true self I had never seen before. I started making my own decisions, creating balance, and giving myself the love I deserved. The first choice I made was to finish University and travel. I realized that going to medical school was more about my parents than it was about me. I was suffering from a case of “busy being busy” without actually going anywhere. So, I decided to hit the reset button and take a leap of faith.
In May of 2017, I quit my full-time job and followed my intuition to Peru. I bought a one-way ticket, sold everything I owned and set off on one of the most incredible adventures of my life. While many of my friends were starting businesses, going to medical school and even settling down, I decided to follow my heart and explore the inner workings of what it meant to live my life intuitively. The first few responses I received when I shared the news with my friends and family were, "You're crazy!”. They were right; I was crazy about life, about living in the moment and about absolute freedom.
I spent many months living with people from all walks of life, speaking Spanish with locals and indulging in the simplicity of being alive. I walked to the local market for fresh veggies and smoothies every morning, engaged in fascinating conversations, created friendships that will last a lifetime, and fell in love with myself countless times. I learned how we have the potential to naturally heal our bodies, minds and spirits through peace, mindfulness and intentional actions. I learned to treasure the present moment and embrace the real adventure of life; this is the philosophy, with which I began to live.
When I embarked on my journey, I had no intention of returning home until one day I got a pull to book my return ticket. I did not understand that feeling then, yet I took the actions to make it real. I found myself back in Toronto on August 5th, 2017, and exactly one week later on August 12, I had met my soul mate. I knew the minute I saw him, as did he, and almost one year later we are continuously expanding our beautiful life together. We recently moved to Uxbridge where we spend lots of time in nature and eat locally grown fresh food as we mindfully slow down the pace of life.
Homeopathy is something I have been called to pursue. I did not know that my journey would lead me here, and I am so grateful that it has. It excites me to see that I have the opportunity to be a practitioner of both an art and science that teaches how to unite the body, mind and soul to create harmony and balance within human beings. More and more people are becoming aware of their innate healing abilities and Homeopathy is an incredibly powerful tool in the progression of our species.
I know that I can apply my intellectual knowledge and passion for human pathophysiology and nutrition with my natural, intuitive ability to heal. Furthermore, I am excited to be able to share the joy of life with humanity through natural remedies. I know that this profession will keep me on my toes and teach me how to apply the power of nature to optimize human health, regardless of where in the world I choose to experience life.
Speaking to Joyce Edge was exceptionally powerful. Her words and energy extended a beautiful invitation to a college that I instantly knew was meant for me. She spoke of the endless possibilities that Homeopaths have; healing the world with Homeopaths without Borders, partaking in cancer research and even teaching all over the world. For the first time in my life, I feel that I am passionate about pursuing education for the most important person – me. I look forward to enjoying this chapter, page by page and surrendering to the process as it gracefully unfolds before me.